Well, i shall start today in a strange mood, a little devious if u will, i am having an odd sense of humor today i suppose that is a good thing, anywho, my son made it in the paper for being an acedemic achiever, can u believe it? He is acomplishing more than i ever could have dreamed for him, i always knew he would be great, but he is surpassing everything i thought. I could not be a more proud mother to this beautiful child who has become a man right before my eyes.
I don't think i will go back to sleep this morning, i think today i will take my happy ass into the shower and attempt to have a productive day, lets hope my good intentions are not for not. I have to make a conscience decision everyday to pull myself out of this funk, they call depression, it overtakes me on most days, some people say depression is all in your head, but i gotta tell you, i know they are wrong first hand, my body has decided it has had enough and literally shuts down on me wether i like it or not, no attempts to get out of bed or do anything normal, happen, it won't let me, it zaps all your energy and takes over your thoughts, basically driving you crazy.
anyone who tells you, depression is all in your head, has never really been in a real depression themselves or they would never say that. However, since i do have good moments and bad moments, i shall savor this moment and take my shower and try to face this beautiful day instead of wasting it sleeping.
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